Wednesday, June 26, 2019

So... you want to be the fucking janitor ?

Hi, my name is FudgePax Prentice. I used to be a stepper fucknut but I’m not anymore.

When I was new to the room Alex would always tell me to not share about my problems.

"I had to set a better example."

Dunno why. I was a newcomer, I wasn't even an op or a chair.

But ten years ago it was instilled in me that this was about other people, not me.

I realized today that half the group doesn't like me or give a fuck about me, as long as they have a working chatroom ... they are totally indifferent about all of this.

I am sorry I wasted a quarter of my life on you people.

I wanted to shove a gun in my mouth tonight. That's when I decided it's time to move on.

I love you Robin Denise, Erica, Susie and Lisa, I put up with this for as long as I could.

And no I’m not on drugs nor have I been recently. Though it’s always been my position that my clean time and recovery are none of Stan Schumacher from nachat.live’s fucking business and I never owed him an answer about either.

The only reason I’m mentioning it now is to say the program fucked me up more than drugs or alcohol did. Run like hell before you waste your empty life in the rooms of AA or NA

Before they heap their scorn and spiritual abuse on you or rape you next or just simply cost you your life out on a relapse because the whole thing is a sham faith healing treatment for a pseudo disorder.

This time I rm -rf'ed everything. its all gone.

All that’s left are evil people who do evil things and evil people who will do nothing about them.

Tuesday, June 25, 2019

petty and vindictive

<MikeM> "I’m gonna have so much fun banning all of you when this site closes 4:04 PM" Rob sadly at least you remain consistent in being petty and vindictive.
<MikeM>  I’m gonna have so much fun banning all of you when this site closes"
<MikeM> 4:04 PM
<MikeM> hasta la bye-bye

8:25 PM <•supervixen> 8:25 PM *** Permanent G-Line added for *@*.wa.comcast.net on Wed Jun 26 01:25:06 2019 GMT (from supervixen!supervixen@AlanoClub-C7ABDD86.irccloud.com: just to be petty and vindictive :))

8:25 PM •supervixen changed host: supervixen@AlanoClub-C7ABDD86.irccloud.com → supervixen@petty.and.vindictive

8:25 PM <•supervixen> 8:25 PM <HostServ> Your vhost of supervixen@petty.and.vindictive is now activated.

8:25 PM <•supervixen> oh when will they learn

If I say fuckers are homophobic aids shaming pieces of shit threatening to kill and/or beat or imprison me.... thats totally cool to those fucking pieces of shit over in the VPC right now.

there's your proof, cultists will enable and cover for the most outrageous of abuses and bury their heads in the sand and NOTHING will jolt their senses... not even this.

they literally don't give a fuck if a chatroom owner skins puppies as long as they have a place to sniff up Jessies skirt and talk about football and food.

Unfortunately this has to stay up.

Nine out of ten of you steptards are crazier than I am, good hiddens.

What really sucks, is that I want to do the adult thing and be the bigger person and delete this blog.

Except now too many of you have threatened me with violence or death.

If you act out on it I want everyone to know what happened.

I want my family to sue every one involved, and world services too. 

As much as I wish I could have been the guy who stood up at the podium on a sweltering Saturday night and gave a canned/rehearsed speech about my park bench story and my ultimate salvation through Muh Steps; or was the hero of the fucking story or something; it turns out I actually have a pretty fucking horrible worst-in-class story about AA and NA.

As much as you wish I would overdose or die of aids and go away quietly, this story stays up.

Somewhere out there someone wants to know what’s wrong with twelve step programs.

I’m telling you this is it.

Unmitigated personality disorders, high prevalence in addiction = high prevalence in the program.

The most evil toxic and fucked up ones stay behind to bully others and sexually exploit or abuse them.

Not only will the fellowship not do anything about it.....

They’ll dogpile on.

No amends are ever coming from a toxic narcissist.

World buries their heads in the sand at both AA and NA

ANYONE half sane runs for the door.

Leaving behind the True Recovery (tm) crowd.

And all that goes along with them.

Anything I’ve posted on this blog may be reproduced or excerpted or quoted by anyone else with a common interest in exposing AA / NA / 12 step for what it is.

Once upon a time I would have felt guilty about hurting the program.

But it’s fucking evil and deadly. If the drugs don’t kill you the fellowship will.

It needs to be destroyed.

Let’s make a deal: YOU will never apologize. And I will NEVER let you live ANY of this down.




Sound good?

Hear me out on this one: The microcosm reflects the macrocosm.

I’m banning every single person who frequents the VPC when it closes because I made them aware of this shit and they were A-OK with it.

Read my lips: every single person who frequents the VPC.

Compare our two microcosms.



I’m sure I won’t be welcome at some of my old meetings.

But I already wasn’t, to begin with. πŸ˜˜πŸ–•πŸ»πŸ˜˜πŸ–•πŸ»πŸ˜˜πŸ–•πŸ»πŸ˜˜πŸ–•πŸ»

πŸ–•πŸ»πŸ–•πŸ»πŸ–•πŸ»πŸ–•πŸ»πŸ–•πŸ»πŸ–•πŸ»πŸ–•πŸ»πŸ–•πŸ»πŸ–•πŸ»πŸ–•πŸ»πŸ–•πŸ»

Bye Betsy

All they do is hiss and moan about how god damn awful the website is, yet they’re still desperate to be logged on.

Must be the true recovery of Narcissists Anonymous shining!!!

Unable to ever admit a wrong, because for a toxic narcissist, that doesn’t mean “I’m sorry I said or did this thing,” to them, it’s “I’m worthless and you may as well hurl me into the sun.”

I know because I fucking dated a couple of you.

DANIEL.

WILL.

LOGAN.

Fuckheads.

Oh yeah, don't forget George.

He was a histrionic little fuckhead fond of false rape and assault accusations too.

Swear to god I've got one of these skirts on and I'm attracting them to my fuckin pussy like moths:



Ever wonder why I’ve got your ticket and why I take such great pleasure in the bloodsport of calling you out and twisting the fucking knife around ?

Anyway, guess we all get to suffer huh.

Isn’t that so much better for you, Betsy?

Is your denial at everyone else’s expense all nice and cozy for you?

Guess what the most hilarious thing is about "Betski"... ?

It's that after all that agitation... and literally YEARS of tireless work to divide the fucking group and turn everyone against each other with her lies and bullshit ..... ?

Well, there are now two rooms and she isnt an op in EITHER one of them!!!

ROFL!!!!!!!!

What's in my KoolAid? Shit. I don't know... GHB? Rolhypnol? GBL? Have a cup and tell me if I'm pretty!

Actually, shit, don't do that. Consent is sexy!!!!!!!!!

I'M SNATCHING MY KOOL-AID BACK!!!! I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT'S IN IT!!!!!



Monday, June 24, 2019

Isn’t it neat?

Look at this stuff
Isn't it neat?
Written by some gutter hype off the street!
Wouldn't you think I'm the girl
The girl who has ev'rything?
Look at this troll
Resentments untold
How much bitterness can one stepper hold?
Lookin' around here you'd think
(Sure) he's got everything
I've got macros and bot treats aplenty
I've got haters and doubters galore
(You want to get death threats
I got twenty)
But who cares?
No big deal
I want more

http://neveraloneclub.org

While you're waiting for a website, a little bit about who we are:

Members of the "recovery community" who are here to hold each other up by the shoulders.

We are here to welcome and encourage people who want to stop using drugs and find a new way to live.

Our core mission is to hold your stories in your hands with us and be the first kind word someone may have heard in a long time.

If you need someone to talk to while you're kicking dope, come on in.

We are NOT "AA" or "NA" or affiliated with any type of program. We are a chatroom with addicts who have been where you are right now.

With that in mind, please note that this is not the place to aggressively "sell" meetings or steps or sponsorship.

Please participate by actually listening to our visitors instead of steering them to your agenda.

Keep us in your back pocket. We never close, unless pickles is pissed off.




As far as competition goes ...

Honestly, I hope most or all the cancerous steppers stay over on stans site clinging to their dead religion and bitterness together. Looking at you, JoeDub, Phil, Miranda/Heather -- to name a couple.

In particular, I hope their entire TS team simply stays over there.

By all means please take ya fuckin business elsewhere.

Lots of fucking luck with that, eventually you will see the truth for yourselves without this blog.

I do not owe my entire life and existence to slavery to your dead cause.

I won't apologize for saying "no thank you" and continuing on to do something else with my life and my time and my energy besides fighting the Good Fight in the Great and Endless NA Chatroom Wars.

Sunday, June 23, 2019

The Mutual Admiration Society: A Convoluted Timeline

The faggots cultivate the most obscure and outrageous parts of the past. They cultivate those past events which the men did not want to happen and which, once they did happen, they wanted to forget. 

These are the parts the faggots love the best. 

And they love them so much that they tell the old stories over and over and then they act them out and then, as the ultimate tribute, they allow their lives to re-create those obscure parts of the past. 

The pain of fallen women and the triumph of defeated women are constantly and lovingly made flesh again. 

The destruction of witty faggots and the militancy of beaten faggots are constantly and lovingly made flesh again. 

And so these parts of the past are never lost. They are imprinted in the bodies of the faggots where the men cannot go.

Some of you will hate me for being the only person who is going to step up — again — and end this endless nonsense that has gone on for 10-12 years* — permanently. We will just let NA have its baggage and its endless online holy wars AND its abysmal track record for helping anyone stay clean and create something new, then sue bad actors out of existence if they appropriate our trademarks. Which is what NA should do to Stan and Janis, but they won’t. And that’s why I’m parting ways with NA and NAWS as a framework. They won’t protect us or help us with shit like this. And I’m the one getting threatened with prison or lawsuits or GRAVE BODILY HARM in the holy fucking name of Narcissists Anonymous ... not fucking Steve.

WE HAVE WASTED TEN YEARS FIGHTING AND CLAWING OUR WAY TO THE TOP OF THE SCRATCHING POST AND TRYING TO FUCKING FRIGHTEN IMPRISON OR THREATEN OUR FELLOWS WITH A SUPPOSED COMMON INTEREST IN HELPING OTHER ADDICTS.

SHAME ON ALL OF YOU. IN THIS TIME SPAN WE HAD HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF NEWCOMERS MAYBE EVEN UPWARDS OF A HALF MILLION SOULS THAT YOU SHOULD HAVE FOCUSED ON FUCKING WELCOMING AND ENCOURAGING

INSTEAD OF TEARING DOWN OTHER PEOPLE WHO FUCKING DEIGNED TO TRY TO HELP OTHERS WITHOUT YOUR PERMISSION.

INSTEAD OF SCREAMING BECAUSE YOU ARENT IN FUCKING CHARGE

ENDLESS HOURS OF LABOR WASTED ON SITE DEVELOPMENT

ENDLESS DOLLARS FOR REDUNDANT FUCKING SITES

EMPTY CHATS WITH NO ONE TO GREET THE NEWCOMER

OR JUST AS BAD, FULLY STAFFED SITES ON EMPTY CHATS WITH NO NEWCOMERS

SIXTY THOUSAND FUCKING DEAD A YEAR

AND YOU FUCKING PIECES OF SHIT WANT ME TO BE NUMBER 60,001

HOW MANY ADDICTS DIED WHILE YOU WERE BUSY SCREAMING ON FACEBOOK OR SUSIES VOICEMAIL?

YOU THREATENED AND INTIMIDATED THE WRONG AIDS RIDDLED FAGGOT.

Game over. 

Fuck NA.

The problem isn’t so much NA, as it is, that you people do not work or live the program.

And you take all this shit out on me.

So I don’t think there is a right way to do “NA” online.

It’s a bunch of fuck heads who don’t work the program shitting on everyone elses recovery or alleged lack thereof. But demanding that all the newcomers go find a meeting and work the steps and program that they themselves do not and will not.

But there is a clear need and demand for something online.

See where I’m going with that?

Socially and personally this has cost me everything because I don’t want it to be easy to contact me or find me. That’s been very hard on my fucking family and friends who don’t understand what’s going on, and just kinda watch me come and go or change phone numbers or whatever.

Or they’ve watched me lose my fucking mind being pecked to death by a duck with your endless bitching and moaning about who hates whom or who fucked whom , for fucks sake people.

I’m sorry I previously stated “15 years” that was an error, I’ve done my research and here’s the timeline. You want to know why me and Connie both guarded our shit closely?

Because we know our history and whose hands it will immediately fall into if we don’t:



"If he was in the rooms, he wouldn't last pissing time."

I have survived in the rooms.

For eleven years, sweetheart. πŸ’…πŸ’…πŸ’…πŸ’…πŸ’…

And if I do die, I've documented your evils so extensively and left behind a trail of names, you fuckers will have CNN on your front lawns for the twelve step horror story of the century, LOL.

I have reams of screen shots of you stepper fuckheads gloating about my imminent death and celebrating it. I have emails from world acknowledging what I’ve sent and stating they don’t give a fuck. I hope my family sues every god damn one of you, and world, for all you’re worth.

That includes you Miss Annie Messinger and your whole “I’ll invite him to my home group but he might be dead when he leaves” bullshit. My aunts car will look real fucking nice parked in your driveway miss “I’m so fucking spiritual I can recite any page in the basic text.”

“Oh if rob hadn’t said something to me on day 47 I wouldn’t even be here.”

“Ohhhh rob taught me how important it was to be the first kind word anyone’s heard in a long time.”

Now you want me dead.

Your spiritual awakening process has landed here, woman.

You make me want to puke.

I hope it’s just the blood clot in your brain talking because you used to be a decent human until the program brainwashed you.

No shit “if he was in the rooms he wouldn’t last pissing time.” Cause y’all are fucking psycho fuckhead steppers and the cocaine ate your frontal lobes, that’s why you have such violent temperaments by your own admission.

Anyway.

My first meeting was on August 5, 2008.

I have attended meetings in eight different states, four major metropolitan areas.

I am known by thousands of people.

I facilitated H&I groups at Haymarket Center for 9 months.

I have given leads.

I have STARTED and chaired several real live face to face meetings.

I have done the steps with more than one sponsor, using both AA and NA.

I have sponsored others.

I am a founding member of my former Alano Club in Austin Texas.

I created na-chat.org and ran what ultimately became nachatroom.org for three years, in which time we saw probably upwards of 180,000 unique visitors. What did you ever contribute other than being a nasty and bitter shithead at 3:00 in the morning Joe? I watched the whole time. I say "nothing."

I am a member of the recovery community.

I just don't have a high regard for Narcissists Anonymous.

Mostly because you cunts behave like this.

No matter what I do or don't do, I'm stigmatized and ostracized for having a mental illness or certainly for being perceived as having one. I'm told I am a worthless fuck with no recovery.

And if I died on a relapse you'd all just say "ah well, he didn't work the program, too bad."

Your program is not only isn't the "only thing that works," it is not even a thing that works at all.

You know why they call you "steppers" ?

Because you STEP over all the bodies and cluck "ah well, he took his will back and didn't pray hard enough or do his steps correctly." LOL

"Well, fuck him, it works for MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE."

Self centered dickholes, the whole lot of you.

You never pause to ask what you could do for the other 50-95% other than blame them.

There is no way to do the program correctly.

Why?

Your program is a delusional fantasy about a faith healing treatment for a pseudo disorder.

It's a fucking sugar pill.

And you're just proving my point about what a bunch of malicious toxic shitheads steppers are.

Some of you are nasty nasty nasty nasty nasty vile fucking people.

No wonder people run out the door and get fucked up and never come back.

PS: I wish I was screwing five or six people a week, giggity, pass me a pipe and I will fuck your entire crew sweetheart. But I have never beat smarties record and taken forty loads in one weekend.

Anyway, I didn't ban Joe for "no reason," I banned him because he's a cunt who sits in the room at 3:00 in the morning ranting about faggots. He is a toxic piece of garbage who is really... just ... a better fit for the shit tier chatters in the VPC.

I know exactly who the fuck he was (and is, below).

I am not as much of an idiot as you think I am, you gaslighting prick!





You know what’s even better than trolling the VPC?




Having an audience!

It was so boring fucking with those pricks in an empty room.

They wanted power and authority so god damn fucking bad... its almost as if they're too incompetent to do anything with it.

You've spent ten years waiting for this moment! It's your turn!

Let your fucking AUTHORATAY shine brothers and sisters!

You’ve certainly gone to great efforts to get hundreds of people opposed to my efforts and you haven’t minced ANY of YOUR fucking words criticizing me or being the “voice of dissent” or making your fucking opinions known to me!

Just wait until you get a REALLY determined troll on methamphetamine who doesn't sleep or come up for air for five days straight, hits you with 700-1000 proxies an hour, and PISSES IN A BUCKET UNDER HIS DESK the whole time! Promise you your whole god damn server is going to fall over.